#182 : Dislike
Monday, January 21, 2013 @ 10:57 PM
Me just don't like when my mood suddenly become good earlier on and then it turn worst when I reach home. OMG! It's like I went home and drop in hell. =.=" What is wrong with me?!! Now I playing with the fonts on my blogger post. Changing it from Times New Roman to Trebuchet and then to Georgia font. Urgh I can't make up my mind to use which font style.. >.< Something is terribly wrong, somewhere. MONDAY was supposed to be my off day resting at home after work BUT, I was coerced to go to NEX by my ex-colleague. End up we went there to eat the 过桥米线 @ 红锅. The last time we went there, we ended up eating something else other than their popular noodle. Therefore this time round we went to eat the popular bowl of noodle. But only like go a few places, then home it is.. Oh wells, I'll update this blog another day with a beauty post. Labels: feelings, meetups, randoms
#174 : Devotion
Saturday, April 14, 2012 @ 9:39 PM
I've been blogging about this issue for quite awhile but yet I felt like I can't really make myself devoted to blogging as much as I wanted to. I'm not sure why I can't make myself go back to blogging. Probably my mind is thinking about something else; like watching my dramas or my game. -_- Maybe cos I'm too stressed or something, I feel so lost recently. During my work and while I'm at home, I don't feel like I'm concentrating at all? I seriously don't even know what is causing all of this. Kinda tired and don't even know what my brain is doing all this while. Or I'm stressing myself or my brain or my body. Arghhhhhhh... God please help me. I think misplace my brain somewhere. Damnit.Labels: feelings, games, randoms, updates, work
#169 : World of being a Hermit
Wednesday, September 21, 2011 @ 7:57 PM
Yes, officially that's true of being in a hermit world. Staying at home is a good idea of saving money and spending lesser. And it still is. Especially, when you spend alot for the past month, so it's better to stay home.
Until now, I haven't had the chance to really post this yet~
Maybe cause my feelings was damn mixed up or something was bothering me so I didn't publish it.
The timing is not perfect.
Okay, so I'm totally busy in training my second dual blade character that's why I didn't go out recently. Or better yet the weather is turning cold, and can't find anyone to go out with and there's nothing much~
But that's good partly or bad for me, good is cos I can save money while the bad is I tend to think of the negative things and thus those negative thoughts troubling me. Seriously until now, I still think of the past and it's torturing me. I should put it past me, if someone can be there or anyone who can be my confidante~ I miss my "confidante". He's married now~ Hais how time flies~
Okay, shall not say anymore. Till my next post maybe 1 or 2 months later?Labels: feelings, miscellaneous, updates
#150 : Friendship, Relationship and the What Nots
Tuesday, September 21, 2010 @ 9:18 PM
Sometimes I feel that relationships whether its to do with chat friends normal friends classmates or colleagues. All these relationship-wise seems so very fragile. Something that I learn while chatting at Alamak. Everyone have to learn to cope with their friends' habitual lives, their characters and their attitudes. It may seem easy at first. Once you did something wrong or stupid you get blacklisted already.
No matter how you change or you wanted to change, all is not important cos the other party may not accept you and even thought bad of you even though you didn't do anything wrong.
There's all kinds of relationships in Alamak. Even freelancers are getting popular in there due to the Gary Ng thingy..
I used to have a best friend in school though but due to some matter we are not really best friends anymore everyone has their own personal lifestyle. Actually I wanted to care about, but all is gone now. To me, best friends or close friends will get lead on to become enemies cos you know too much of the other party's secrets having been with them each and every single day.
I don't like the whole idea of what they are all having in Alamak like prejudices against each other. I can't say that I hated anyone in there. Just dislike only. That's enough. Don't really had to think of anything else. Just don't care about what they talk about you.
Even if they are having events or gathering they shouldn't allow 2 people who dislike each other to appear at the same place. It's a real big MISTAKE! Even if confirm nothing will happen, in the end SOMETHING will happen! It always will. 99.9% something will definitely happen.
I rather be normal friends then to have best or close friends. At the very least no one knows deep down I actually have a dark secret. No one will believe it either. ( I guess. ) Only told a few people about it. Not even 10% of my total friends knows about it.Labels: feelings, personal
#94 : =C
Wednesday, January 6, 2010 @ 8:15 PM
: Placebo Cure episode 7 & Moonlight Resonance episode 1 - 23
: Still Moving Under Gunfire - Lin Junjie (New Song)
: will i meet a new guy?
: sad & moody (maybe becos watched too much depressing dramas =X)
: i miss eating Swensens & Sakae D;
hmmm my mood or feeling have been on a negative side probably due to watching too much depressing and love hurting dramas i guess..hais especially You're Beautiful the drama so hurting when coming to finishing the drama..and oso Moonlight Resonance alot of hurting parts here and there from family to love to friends..and have been tearing too much..i think much more den hw i used to tear daily~(something wrong with my eyes even when i cold or sleepy my eyes tend to tear oso -.- its lyk a daily procedure for me so if i dun tear for a day its simply WEIRD!)Labels: feelings, updates
#80 : Happy With Him
Sunday, October 11, 2009 @ 10:56 PM
: 4 Minutes - Madonna ft Justin Timberlake & Timbaland
: looking forward
: enjoyed~!
: waiting for nxt kopi session~!
i've been enjoying these 2 days..yes with a new found friend..as wad he say we both sounded lyk long lost friends or something whom we've known lyk quite long as we kip joking and laughing at all the topics..hmmm tis sounds familiar rite?same as wad "he" oso say..there's quite a few similarities me and him..hahah i wonder if its coincidence or something else?
anyway i really dun feel lyk thinking of the love stuff..but to enjoy wad i'm doing rite now..and with all the friends i've found in alamak..and oso my new friend whom we chatted quite alot..hehe but i'm afraid of something instead..hmmm maybe i myt say in the near future..we'll see oky?Labels: feelings, happenings
#78 : Hibernating Season
Saturday, October 3, 2009 @ 7:20 PM
: A Handful of Love Ep 1 - 7
: My Turn Hoobastank
: outings~
haven been updating for quite a long time..reason being simply no mood and lazy dun feel lyk updating at all..grrrrr i nid to wakeup~and do the tings i wanna~but i just got tis lazy mood now -.- sorry for not updating lehs..=P
and for chat-wise its getting abit bored now whenever most of the ppl are out for gatherings..=(Labels: feelings
#74 : Emotions
Monday, September 7, 2009 @ 1:15 PM
Emotions~
I've suddenly tot of the memories of us together until the song jz suddenly popped out of a sudden..the same song dat one of my chatter fren has on her blog too..when you're gone by avril lavigne..dat's when i kip thinking of everything the scenes just kip flashing over my mind over n over again.it jz hurts~
Right now i've nth to wish for..jz hope dat euu'll get over yr work n school soon..mayb euu wun get to read tis entry but i hope those who read understand my feeling..
Now i jz live day by day hoping something good will happen miraculously i hope..
**PS : i still miss euu~jz having to chat with euu in fb for a few mins is enuff for me~!
**PSPS : i wish there'll be someone to company me for these few weeks whether its for a meal or movie..i'll appreciate it..thanks~!Labels: feelings, love, outings
#56 : Loads To Catch Up
Friday, June 26, 2009 @ 12:11 AM
: 回憶的聖誕節 - JS
: SHE - Love Map / Ping Guan - All For Love
: sleepy && sians loads~
: mit : 40% of lvl 80
been so long since i updated..maybe cos i'm feeling damn bored..chatroom has become inactive for 2/3 days..so many problems..
feeling sleepy alot too~i wonder is it work?
or my mood is going to change soon?
anyways i'm trying my berii best to update tis blog le..i hope.
one of the reasons being no mood....sleepy...and the biggest reason of all is LAZY!
i miss my alamak chatters especially chloeee.. *giggles*
hopefully chloeee saw tis entry~~!!to show how much i miss her..
Labels: feelings, randoms
#52 : Albums - Black Eyed Peas
Sunday, June 7, 2009 @ 9:11 PM
: 幸福的理由 - Nicholas Teo 张栋梁
: Black Eyed Peas - The E.N.D
: tired sleepy muscle pain
Tracklist~~:
01. Boom Boom Pow
02. Rock That Body
03. Meet Me Halfway
04. Imma Be
05. I Gotta Feeling
06. Alive
07. Missing You
08. Ring A Ling
09. Party All The Time
10. Out Of My Head
11. Electric City
12. Showdown
13. Now Generation
14. One Tribe
15. Rockin' To The Beat
16. Simple Little Melody (Bonus Track)
17. Mare (Bonus Track)
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i'll be looking forward to the coming outings and all =) i wanna enjoy myself to the max..hoping all the problems will be gone~~~
Labels: english, feelings, music albums
#40 : The Aftermath Of A Past Relationship
Thursday, May 14, 2009 @ 2:38 PM
: Love Guaranteed Ep 13 - 15
: Walking On Air - Kerli
: Penny Tai - Forgive Me For Being The Girl I Am
: Home-ly
Tracklist~~:
01.原谅我就是这样的女生 (yuan liang wo jiu shi zhe yang de nü sheng)
02.看见听见 (kan jian ting jian)
03.两难 (liang nan)
04.吹嗶嗶 (chui bi bi)
05.天生好手 (tian sheng hao shou)
06.一念之间 (yi nian zhi jian)
07.那个那个 (na ge na ge)
08.It’s All About Love (it’s all about love)
09.Las Ramblas (las ramblas)
10.冷落 (leng luo)
11.LAFITE (lafite)
12.我想也没关係 (wo xiang ye mei guan xi)
13.你不一样 (ni bu yi yang)
14.这就是我 (zhe jiu shi wo)
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I've been putting th thought of a real relationship behind me for too long.th thought of another serious relationship might be too much for me to bear and having to start all over again is putting a toll on me too and oso th hurt it causing me.altho i've gotten over it but memories do flash back sometimes of th past whether its happy sad or something else it had the effect on my mind~
I hope its my imagination but something or its psychology effect had me pulling back from getting into another real relationship...i'm actually scared dat something bad will happen again~~Labels: chinese, feelings, music albums
#39 : Feelings & Album Updates
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @ 1:16 PM
: Right Next To The Right One - Celine Dion
: Eminem - Relapse
: Sian Day~
: Things to do : ?
Tracklist~~:
1 Dr. West (Skit)
2 3am
3 My Mom
4 Insane
5 Bagpipes From Baghdad
6 Hello
7 Tonya (Skit)
8 Same Song & Dance
9 We Made You
10 Medicine Ball
11 Paul (Skit)
12 Stay Wide Awake
13 Old Time's Sake f. Dr. Dre
14 Must Be The Ganja
15 Mr. Mathers
16 Deja Vu
17 Beautiful
18 Crack A Bottle f. Dr. Dre & 50 Cent
19 Steve Berman (Skit)
20 Underground/Ken Kaniff
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Will i ever ever find a guy who is so caring to me?taking care of me or even jz having fun with me having no fear of the future as we live our lives together.Sometimes i wonder will our lives be in poor or rich it all have to do with yr fate i guess or mayb its my destiny?to kip waiting n waiting n waiting~hoping dat the right guy will come along n give me the warmth,care,love n feel dat i've never felt before in all my relationships~ ^^i hope it will come soon!Labels: english, feelings, music albums
#4 : A New Working Day
Monday, February 23, 2009 @ 8:56 PM
: Under The Canopy Ep 3A - 3B
: 陪他 - 彭佳慧
: Spirits Lifted Up
: Things to do : collecting lappy tmr!! =)
i tink my mood had gone back to normal but still as wad i been saying hurt is still kept deep down inside my heart..i really dunknw yy but when eur hurt euu really shld avoid emo songs..but in my case its the other way round it seems lyk i'm trying to search my heart for more emo feelings..recently been listening to emo,rnb,techno or the wad sorts of songs lyk thai..but to me emo songs are the most..no matter if i'm using my mp3 or my winamp now i kip hearing emo wherever i go..=(
not dat i purposely wanted to hear but it jz pop out..although still not toking to him but at least i'm not showing a black face liao or so i tot..and i hope i really can adjust back my feelings to the happy-go-lucky kind..jz dunknw yy if i'm hurt in both relationship a good ting or a bad ting? o.O
so to a good new happy day to me!!!!Labels: feelings
#1 : Beginning Entry
Saturday, February 21, 2009 @ 4:41 PM
yes officially starting my blog today although i'm now babysitting for ann..but ii really really have this urge to change my blog addy so i will slowly tag everybody on my prev blog oky...seriously although right now i dun have the feeling or strength to actually put myself back on the track but i will try to adjust myself asap cos i dunwan it to affect my work oso..its too stressful doing tis but i oso have to try..no matter wad.no matter its physically or mentally.
To be continued~~~~Labels: feelings
